DREAM BIG

Isaiah 54:2-3

Make your tent bigger. Open your door wide.

Don't think small!

Make Your Tent Large and Strong, Because You Will Grow in All Directions. Your children will take over many nations and live in cities that were destroyed.

I can't do it, I don't have enough.., I need... the words we tell ourselves or someone has fed us for years and left us defeated. As children of a King there were so many declarations our Father gave us He had to keep them documented in a book 'The Bible'. Can you imagine actually living out what he has already declared for us smh no I really cannot imagine it because every so often I tend to forget one thing or the other. After reading understanding and beginning to live out what I've already read I tend to start all over again. His word is a reminder of all His promises that has to be fulfilled when we walk in his purpose and plan for our lives. Many years ago I remember a second-third cousin (distant in leniage) telling me she didn't believe I was supposed to remain confined to the Bahamas and would've liked for me to move; at the time she was living in California. I grew up with her as a household name, the person who would have our telephone lines blocked speaking to my mom for hours. She definitely was not my peer but she saw something so big inside of me that I could not see nor did I understand at that time. When she spoke those words to me I am not sure if I truly recieved it; I was afraid then of the outside world. There were so many things, people and places that I was never able to experience. But 2016 was a woke moment for me, I stepped out in faith moving to a city I never visited, moving with friends I had never spent extended time around. This was me dreaming big and believing that God will somehow work things out the way I had planned. We have a BIG God with BIG plans! In hindsight God allowed me to move to develop some gifts in me I didn't know I had, to bring something out of me that I kept hidden. I was always what we say in the Bahamas very 'bigidy' (bold, have lots of attitude) but didn't really have direction, I worked so I can live, pay bills and at some point purchase a home. At that point, that's what living looked like to me. I had a desire in me for more...I wasn't sure what I wanted more of but where I was at tha time definitely was not it.

When my daughter and I moved everything was bigger! The bills, taxes, rent and the city. I tried not to complain but at different times I got so frustrated with God I would sit and cry, scream and rwow (bahamian term: rant). God wanted this, he wanted me to stop trying, stop doing and watch what he could do for me. Have you ever talked to a friend who seemed like they told a joke but their face was serious? Sometime this is how I felt with God; it would seem like everything was not working out then it did. I want to honest here this relationship is like a manual drive car you have got to use a bit of gas (energy) and clutch (faith) to get moving, balancing enough to still hear from God and not burning out the clutch. I really wanted to get it though (our relationship), I wanted God to use me and allow me to be a blessing to others but boy did that come with sacrifice. In order to get from one point to the other it was like a miniature obstacle course (it wasn't bad) but it takes effort. This is not that kind of relationship that gets stale I could tell you that for sure. He really makes it fun!

After some years in the relationship I told God some things I needed to see happen and they did, this was great! But there were others that had not yet manifested, why did I always get so frustrated knowing that he knew me before I was even formed in the womb. He knew what was best for me and if it has not yet happened it is not the season. Open the door wide, make ready for the blessings that will come! I continued living my best life, yaaaaassssss I really began enjoying all the fruits that I received in that season. All the travels, dinners, outtings, visits then another prayer was answered. Could you imagine if we had everything we wanted what would we need a parent for? Then there become more things that was added to this prayer list. I prayed more and more for others and the things they needed, then the things God placed in my heart we got closer and closer. The desire for what God wanted become greater, this is how I kept dreaming bigger, he was showing me how many years before I was thinking small, dreaming small and believing small but I had a BIG God!

Are you still dreaming? Do you believe what you are waiting for will manifest?