LETTER TO THE HOLY SPIRIT

And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever

John 14:16

Dear Holy Spirit,

I am learning about your nature and I am trying to understand how to let you guide and lead me. I never understood how much culture has formed my thoughts. I read that you are a Spirit of Truth and also that you reside in me. I could never understand how that could happen but because I am learning to submit to God and heard that He has our best interest at hand I honor that. But quite incidentally you are Him God and He is you the Holy Spirit, which normally had me confused but I have now understood it to be like this; I am daughter to my mom, grand-daughter to my grand-mom and mother to my daughter I am the same person displayed to different people in different ways. When my friends speak of me they may describe me as fun or spontaneous but my mom may say that I am rude and disobedient, my grand may say that I very sweet and have more endearing words to say about me, while my daughter may say I am argumentative. You display yourself in different ways to us like a Father who corrects His child, like a good friend when we need advice, like a counsellor when we really need that advocate and even loving like a mother; the softness that we ma otherwise never recieve. It amazes me how much you love us!

I hope you are not tired of me yet, you probably don't get tired do you? I have messed up so many times and you come in and help me out of my mess of a life. Yesterday I sinned, I knew I was not supposed to but I did anyway. I have been trying not to, but it seems as if something takes over me. I thought I should let you know although you already know, but I was taught that I am supposed to repent and tell you about my sins. There are so many more, like my thoughts, my actions, sometimes I still say bad words and my family life can be such a mess I go out to make myself feel better. It does not actually work because I can feel worse after a night out, I better also say that after a night of drinking I had sex as well. I want to change but it feels so hard. I thought I should let you know what I did and I will try in the future. I have seen those Christians and they are always making mistakes; lying, stealing and sleeping around. I have even seen the Pastors live a life that seems to be against what the word of God says what are you gonna do with them? Anyway, that's why I don't go to church they be doing there own thing then talking bout' praising God...Praise who?

Thank you for waking me up this morning, thanks for my family, thanks for food and clothes and my ride.

On the fence babe in Christ!

Christian not a Christian...

(tune in tommorrow for The Holy Spirits response)

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