THE WAIT
- Me Kelle
- Nov 29, 2020
- 4 min read
Updated: Jan 7, 2021
Ecclesiates 3:1 ERV There is a right time for everything, and everything on earth will happen at the right time.
The wait at times can be so frustrating after many nights of prayer, many nights of uncertainty with no date, not time, no expiration God really encouraged me to depend on him. God wants us to trust him...isn't that what faith is all about putting complete trust in something or someone? The wait has been a very interesting roller coaster ride; believe me I love rides but you know at some point you will get off. There were days when I didn't feel like I was waiting, then there are other days when it feels as if I am incarcerated (with a lifetime sentence) really sometime it feels like forever, like I will never get married. I never wanted to rush anything but when I turned my life over to Christ I knew I wanted to be a refelction of him and became concerned for the right partnership. Genesis 2:18 is one example of having the right partnerships, God has made someone comparable (similar or equivalent) to compliment, to be suitable and, to help each other; another version says he made a companion that he (the man) needs, one just right for him, a counterpart-one who balances him (the man). Okayyyyyy now that was a bit to digest because here I was thinking this man had to help me or balance me, I was created to balance him. This was a paradigm shift I am created and have been molded for someone; to compliment, help and balance this guy. Wow!
I have been on many dates this I will compare this to trying on shoes; there has been some that looked great but didn't feel comfortable then there were others that didn't fit. It was either too big or too small and sometimes because we like them we try to make them fit even when it hurts we squeeze them on, but they just won't fit! God is intentional, He is loving and He is a man to His word meaning the person will compliment and balance you or you would be the complimentor (my word) lol. The thought of waiting started to change because if he cares about me so much that he took me from "the man's" rib why should I be upset about meeting him or not meeting him? I am certain it will happen but what should I be doing while I wait? I prayed about God's direction for my life and the instruction was to prepare (read Time to Prepare) as I think about this preparation process I could see now if I was disobedient or didn't prepare at all I really would get so frustrated in marriage. What was the vision and purpose that God gave me, who am I? What do I like and would like to do? I always loved writing since elementary (primary) school with Ms. Bain. It has always been so soothing for me, I could sit for hours writing but life got busy and I forgot about it. When I understood my vision I became more confident that whoever I was complimenting had to be amazing and knew not anyone could waste my time.
Sometime after receiving instruction to prepare I sat down with my spiritual parents and shared my thoughts and opinions on what at that time seemed like a long and hard process. Each of them gave me so much knowledge and instructions on how to prepare, especially in seeking God's direction, knowing God's heart on the matter. Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit in me (Psalms 51:10). Every dysfunctional thought, bad tendencies, trauma, family issues, the lies that I told myself, someone told me and the devil told me had to be uninstalled from my hard drive, wiped clean from my system. So God could download what he needed to me. Right now as I think back on the process it has been amazing how certain people were placed in my life with the right tools, the right background, testimony, life obstacles for us to help each other; these people were my destiny helpers. This became a reflection to me of my future relationship/marriage. How seamless it can be one person helping the other through prayer, words of encouragement, support, and spending time together with God's grace. God's power and strength beause in our own we would quit, run and abort the process.
Waiting on God well it is hard when we read about longsuffering, endurance, perseverance, faith and patience we can never comprehend what the wait will look like or how long for that matter. Would it be 1 year, 3 years or 5 months only God knows the length of time, we can try to speed up the process but that comes with more work. Learn God's direction and purpose for you, find out what is required to fulfill that purpose and start to develop and fulfill the purpose😉🙃😇
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